I'm 41 years old now, just finished our 5th IVF and have no clear answer as to why it hasn't worked yet. I'm trying to figure out what the next step should be... Welcome to my nightmare and thanks for reading.
PS~ English is my second language so please forgive my errors :)
Time is flying by like everyone said it would! 20 weeks already!
We are flying out tomorrow to Seattle, the anatomy scan will be on Monday, cannot wait to find out the sex of baby A is! What's your guess?
Cynthia is doing good, except for some Carpal Tunnel, the palpitations are better, but I feel I'll have a better idea of how everything is going once I'm there and see it first hand.
I've been busy, I rented a storage unit and getting tons of stuff out of our place, it seems like a waste of money but trust me it's saving our marriage. I'm a minimalist and Dan loves to collect stuff , the negotiations on what to keep and what to donate were not going good. So a storage unit seemed the perfect solution. Still a lot to go through, hopefully will be done in the next two weeks and then I can start the fun part of painting and getting the nursery ready.
We've also been interviewing pediatricians, we've got a night nurse in place already, the registry is done and we pretty much settled for Hipp formula from the UK, we are ordering through Amazon. Plan B for formula is Baby's Only. I still feel I have a ton to do. Exciting times ladies!
The pregnancy has been going great. There are two healthy babies in there, two good heartbeats and they are both growing at a normal range. That means great to me.
Has it been smooth? Maybe not so much. Cynthia has been having spotting throughout the first 12 weeks, but they said that was normal. She had been feeling very nauseous but that has gone away, now she's able to keep food down and eat whatever she wants. But she has had a run to the ER the other day because she woke up with an extremely swollen wrist, then it went down but they told her she might be developing carpal tunnel due to the pregnancy.
She also has been having palpitations and been very short of breath, things she didn't experience with her first two pregnancies. But of course, she was 25 and 29 while pregnant and with only a singleton so of course we shouldn't expect things to go as easy. They sent her to get a electrocardiogram, everything went fine. She also got a monitor attached for 24 hours to check on her heart as well and we are waiting for the results.
I am learning to relax. I'm learning to let go. I'm learning to just focus on all the list of things I need to get ready for the babies and try not to think of all the things that could go wrong. I'm doing my best.
We are 18 weeks tomorrow and we're flying on the 7th for the 20 week anatomy scan. Can't wait to see them again! Will it be two boys or boy/girl that's the question!
Did I mention I live in a 600sq ft apartment? Yes, we live in a shoe box, but the good news is that we have 2 bedrooms. Yay! One of them has been Dan's office since forever so now he is having to give it up. He is not looking forward to it and wants to stretch his time there as much as possible (of course!). So my painting/decorating/setting up the nursery project will be the last thing I do before they come. I guess we are leaving the fun for last.
In the meantime, and to feel like I'm doing something, I thought I would get the registry together. Wow. I went with a good friend to Buy Buy Baby and it was absolutely crazy. My idea was to keep things simple but it seems like that's impossible. There are so many things that look like would make a new mom's life so much easier and convenient, and I feel that with twins I should take advantage of that. So the items I think I need keep piling up! LOL
If you have any product you love or anything you thought it was a waste of money, please let me know. I'm a total minimalist and absolutely hate clutter. I would love to keep my place neat and organized... I wonder if that would ever be possible again with twins, ha!
While on bedrest at CCRM after my first IVF there, April 2011 that is, I decided I would bake pretty cupcakes and put baby toppers to announce our pregnancy at my office. I thought it would be so fun!! It didn't happen in 2011 as you know, but in the meantime Pinterest gave me an even cuter idea... almost 3 years later, here we are...
The girls at work got sooo excited for us, they were awesome, super supportive, telling me to bring the babies to work, offering help, I feel so so blessed. I have a poll running too, and of course I have about 7 people guessing it's boy/girl, so if that's true I'm screwed! I'll need a huge budget for just awards! :)
Did I tell you we know one is boy? Dr. Jain told me he was transferring a boy from CC.RM. The other one will be a total surprise!
We decided last week to tell a few of our closest friends. I told my boss first a few weeks prior, not sure if I'd mention it here, he was so happy for us, he knew about everything since our first IVF and he told me he hadn't ask me about babies because he thought for sure we had given up. He had tears in his eyes while I was telling him about how amazing Cynthia has been. He told me he would be as accommodating as possible once the babies come and that I could even bring our babies to work if needed. What a relief, and what a wonderful man!
Dan has been having a ton of fun telling people. He first tells them he has some news, he sits them down and with a straight face he tells them that we are getting a divorce, everyone gets shocked, once they start asking questions he says we are having twins, lol. He loves doing it :)
On my end I haven't told many of my friends yet, but so far the response has been positive overall except for one in particular, the exact one that I would have thought would be thrilled for me but I felt she wasn't. The one that had known most details throughout my struggles, the one closest to me, the one that I thought would be the happiest. So I'm a little hurt (a lot). Dan thinks it could be due to her still being single, no option of babies at the moment, and yes, we know how it feels to be happy for someone but sad for oneself... but once you are over the shock, I expected an email or something. Nothing. So that has been a bit disappointing and sad. Other than that I'm thrilled.
Thursday is my next multiples meeting, Dan is coming this time, I'm very excited.
I've been really sick for the past few days, it had been coming, I've had a horrible sore throat and body aches for a couple of weeks now and it finally hit me pretty bad. So I was at home taking it easy when Cynthia called. Results are normal, to my big surprise! I had already convinced myself that I would get a false positive but no, everything is good, no signs of abnormalities, what a huge relief! HUGE relief.
I'm not good at staying home, laying in bed and doing nothing so between naps I've been going through the baby bargain book and finding out all the things that a baby needs! WOW! There are tons of things to buy and decisions to make, with baby formula being the hardest for sure, even the organic ones include sugar, carrageenan, palm oil and not such great stuff. I found this very useful blog that compares the ones on the market. Do you have any good one you may recommend?
Now changing the subject a bit, this is what my bed looks like right now, including Olive, our new addition to the family!
Seeing Dan so sad and our home so empty, I started researching chihuahuas for adoption in the area. I initially entered our zip code and did a search for male, young chihuahua, I was shocked when I saw over 7,000 chihuahuas available!! Some of them had flashing warnings saying they would be euthanized in the next 24-48 hours. I sent Dan the link. I knew it was early, we had lost Princeton so recently but we were also shocked to see how many animals were in need.
We adopted Olive the next day, Dan saw her online, we drove to Anaheim and we took her right away. She was barely 4 pounds when we got her and has gained a pound since. She is loving, sweet and super playful, we are already in love.