I'm 41 years old now, just finished our 5th IVF and have no clear answer as to why it hasn't worked yet. I'm trying to figure out what the next step should be... Welcome to my nightmare and thanks for reading.
PS~ English is my second language so please forgive my errors :)
I got waken up by Cynthia on Tuesday at 5:35am, "Wake up! wake up! My water broke!", I had tears just hearing that, we all showered, called the hospital and got there as fast as we could, Cynthia, Dan, my brother in law and my sixteen year old niece. Even though Cynthia has two children of her own, she's never had her water break before, first pregnancy was c-section, second was induced, she was shocked at how much water was coming out and kept coming out, I had no clue either so it was all new to all of us. We got to the hospital and all the monitoring started, they had an emergency before us and since Cynthia was stable, we had to wait a little.
Let me tell you that EVERYONE at the hospital knew who we all were. They had been touched by our story, by Cynthia's amazing generosity and by our many years of struggle. The nurses started telling each other that we were ready for delivery and many started leaving their posts to come to our floor and wish us luck. So amazing! Such incredible people. I felt all the emotions possible creeping up on me with every second. With every one of Cynthia's contractions, every hug I got, every well wish, that moment were I would finally become a mom was approaching soon.
Even though they usually just allow one person in the operating room, specially with twins, they let me and my brother in law both be there. It all happened so fast, they let me in an I remember asking Cynthia how she was feeling, telling the anesthesiologist that Cynthia was feeling a lot of the pulling and if there was something else he could give her, she was obviously in pain, and then I heard "baby girl!" and Jasmine started to cry and cry, I felt my heart was going to come out of my chest. The amazing nurse saw me with my camera totally paralyzed and told me to get my butt to were she was and start taking pictures, I did, then I heard "baby boy!", OMG, it all was going so fast, they were born exactly 1 minute apart and I didn't know where to look, what to capture, were to turn. They asked me if I wanted to cut the umbilical cord, sure! Those cords are strong! I cut both of them and two seconds later the nurse took my camera away from me and handed me both of them.
I was living by far the most magical moment of my life.
I stared at them, went to Cynthia for her to see them and asked the nurse if I could show my husband. Left the room with them in my arms and Dan was standing there. As I type this, I can't stop crying. His eyes got watery, he looked at me, looked at Dylan, looked at Jasmine and repeated that over and over and over again. I wish I could have frozen everything at that time, I wish I could relive it forever. I felt my heart was larger than the room and my emotions even greater than that.
Welcome to the world Jasmine Olivia, born on July 29th at 10:43am, 5 lbs even and 16.5 inches long.
and Dylan Jackson, born on July 29th as 10:44am, 5 lbs. 14 oz and 18.5 inches long.
No NICU for either of them and Cynthia is doing great. We came home on Thursday and my life is now complete. I have been blessed beyond words.
and still nothing! I had been so worried about them coming early and bugging Cynthia to stay in bed as much as possible, so hard to believe we had made it this far. I am so lucky!
I arrived in Seattle last Saturday, so I've been here almost a week. It's been great going to all doctors appointments and feeling my babies move. We are thrilled they are still in but very eager for them to come out. Cynthia has been walking more than usual and going up and down the stairs, at this point if they come early I know they'll make it fine, we are not worried, so she's free to do what she wants, she's been good for a long time now, she deserves to do as she pleases. She has been a rockstar, her blood pressure is good, no gestational diabetes, fluid is good, contractions are 10-13 minutes apart, still 1 cm dilated (for a whole month now!) and absolutely no signs of imminent labor. C-section is scheduled for August 2nd. Wow!
Can-not-believe it yet! I'm almost a week away, if not sooner, of holding my babies.
Yes, I am now officially one of those terrible bloggers than once they get pregnant we never hear from them, sooooo embarrasing!!! Sorry!!
The good news is we are 35 weeks as of yesterday, babies are doing awesome, Cynthia is 1.5cm dialated and 80% effaced, we are thinking it will happen next week. As you know, Dan has been there almost a month on Sunday and has been going to appointments and helping out around the house since he can work remotely and I can't. It's so awesome to hear him so excited after each ultrasound or NST, he has bonded with the babies so much already! It makes me so happy to hear him talk :)
I am leaving for Seattle on Saturday, I'm flying with our little Olive and planning on staying there for a month. That time is here already!! In about a week or two max, I will have those babies in my arms, unreal! I'm beyond excited but it will sink in more when I get there. I've been so busy at work leaving everything organized and at home, with so many things, that I've been very distracted. Still cannot believe this is my life.
So sorry! I was waiting for a good time to update, when I can sit and take time to write and lately there has been no time at all! So I'm doing it now, no matter what, I've totally given up on a perfect moment to update.
Things are good, they are really great. We will be 32 weeks on Wednesday and I'm very happy about that. Of course I want them in there as long as possible but if they come today, I'll be fine and they will too. So that is such a relief!
The pregnancy has been going good. Cynthia has been on bed rest for over a month. Her cervix, and I'm trying to remember if i had mentioned this on my last post... , had been shortening for quite some time, it was short to begin with but it went from 3.7 to 2.7, to 1.7, of course I started to freak out and wasn't super confident that Cynthia was really following the bed rest to a T, I felt the doctor wasn't really on it either, etc, etc. so I had a few days of paranoia and stress but her cervix has been stable at 2 for the past 3 weeks so all seems good and I'm so happy!!!
Dan drove this weekend to stay in Seattle and help the family. Cynthia is on bed rest so theres meals to be made, things to do and we don't want to burden my brother in law with more than what he's been doing already, so we decided that Dan will go. His job allows him to work remotely, mine doesn't work that way, I can do some but 80% has to be at the office, so Dan's officially living in Seattle and next time I see him we will most likely be a family of 5 already (counting little Olive of course!)
C-section is schedule for August 2nd, at 37.5 weeks. Going by Cynthia's belly and cervix I doubt we'll make it that far, but we might all be surprised... who knows. The babies are doing great. Last week my boy was weighing 3 lb. 7 ounces and my little girl was at 3 pounds 2 ounces. I hear all the growth is in the next few weeks and judging by the size of Cynthia's belly as of today it looks like they might be over 4 pounds by now.
What else? I am ready, I feel ready. The nursery is almost done just waiting for a decal replacement to arrive. We are doing just one crib until they start turning, our nursery is small, two cribs fit in there but we rather have it not so crowded for as long as we can.
Here are a few pictures.
Here is our FB announcement:
I have to say that everyone I know have taken this in an amazing way. I prefaced the picture by saying that thanks to my amazing sister in law that offered to carry, we are now pregnant with twins, etc., etc. Everyone has been so supportive, non judgemental, no one got too personal, no weird questions, just love, happiness and support from everyone. I am lucky. I was prepared for awkward moments and I can honestly say I've encountered none.
We had a beautiful baby shower:
And super cute cake:
It feels so real now. It is really happening!
Cannot wait!! ... Even though at times I wish I had a few more months to chill.
And for fun, what's your bet? When do you think they'll be coming? Mine is 2nd week of July, between 34 and 35 weeks. I'll be so happy with that!
Happy Mother's Day to all the mom's and mom's to be. And for those of you struggling, do not lose faith. This has been a hard day for me for years, first infertility, then the loss of my mom and then both. Today is my first Mother's Day in a long time that I've spent in good spirits. The day is coming!
Sorry I've been MIA for so long. I've just been incredibly busy. Babies are great. We are 25.5 weeks as of today. Cynthia is doing fine, cervix is on the short side, 2.7 but the OB and Maternal Fetal doctors are not too concerned, so I'll try not to be. She has gained about 20 pounds, not too much yet but babies are growing fine, all tests are normal.
I've been busy with a million things and next weekend is our baby shower. After that I have two more weeks of constant engagements but hoping to relax by June and maybe get a babymoon somewhere in there!