I had the phone appointment with the doctor at the Seattle clinic. I'm embarrassed to say I don't even remember her name! She went over my history and asked a few questions about me and Cynthia. She was very nice, it was an appointment to basically establish the relationship and move on to the screening process. Everything went well. But of course I couldn't help to ask her opinion about what's going on with us, BIG mistake!! She went on to say that she doesn't think there's anything wrong with my uterus, that there is not an agreement about whether the DNA fragmentation of the sperm is an issue and that CCS testing does not necessarily mean my embryos are entirely normal, that there could be something wrong, that they may not be sending signals to the uterus. Basically, she thought it was my eggs.
I will never know until we try one way or another. I know I need to make a decision, move forward and not listen to anyone's opinion anymore. I just absolutely hate to throw more money away. This decisions just suck!
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56Up series is showing in NY now and soon everywhere else. I'm so excited! I't s going to be the first time I watch one in the theaters. If you haven't seen it, I highly recommend it.
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I saw 56 Up a few weeks ago (I'm a film critic) and it was just as good as all the others; really fascinating to see where everyone has ended up. That said, there aren't any major revelations in this instalment -- everyone's kind of just enjoying their fifties. :)
ReplyDeleteSounds like kind of a frustrating phone appt... guess all you can do at this point is cross your fingers (which I'm sure you've been doing for years now). It never gets any easier, does it?
How great to be a film critic! What an awesome job! I can't wait to see it. You really end up loving all of them like if they were your own children. It's very interesting how knowing someone as a child endears you to them.
DeleteUgh - unexplained IF is so frustrating. The only thing to do is move forward.
ReplyDeletetake care, Tess
I know you get it, Tess :(
DeleteHi, just discovered your blog after starting my own about all the IUI IUV and WTHs. I feel ya. Super good luck on this wild adventure.
ReplyDeleteThanks! Same to you!
Deletelove that series! I watched it at school 30 odd years ago initially.....some of them make me so sad! I'll have to check it out. is it possible to do an implant of a donnor egg to you and use your embryo's with your sister in law at the same time...or would expense rule it out?
ReplyDeletesomething will happen...one blog i have been following the lady is 46 and just as a last resort went to greece and did donnor egg implants and it worked she is having twin boys...ohohbaby1 is the blog..don't give up :)
Thank you!! I was just asking Dan if he thought we would ever have a child? It HAS to happen, right? Hope before 46 :) I'll check out that blog.
DeleteOOOOOHHHH, I hear you about some making you sad, me too!!! Some are just heartbreaking, I know! Specially that one kid (don't remember the name :( )
I can't even imagine how frustrating it is every time you talk to someone new and get a different opinion. I hope whatever you decide just works already...it's been too long and you've been through too much! xo
ReplyDeleteI woke up thinking about you Jen (I swear), must have been because you were thinking of me :) How are you? You haven't updated your blog in a while. I assume everything's good?
DeleteI'm good my friend - just plugging along. I think about you often and am constantly in awe of your determination. Somehow, someway...you will be a mom.
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